pieces of me — Sophie Kay's

pieces of me + the year of “re-”

throughout this tough season were in, I have found myself feeling like an entirely different human. no longer constricted by the same routine, the same rules, and the same restrictions that I once was. this time has given me anxiety, made me question what it was that I want from my education and what I want to do moving forward past it. however, this time has also made me push through my creativity, step out of my comfort zone, and become a bolder version of myself.

I have come to call this period, the year of “re-” as it has been a time of remembering, redefining, and rediscovering.

remembering

I’ve been living my days through old photographs: coffee dates with friends, working at the MFA in Boston and being surrounded by strangers on the daily. being removed from the life I created in the city left me feeling out of control at first, not having a say in my day to day decisions and being back in my childhood home. however, after the initial shock wore off, it allowed me to put more of a value to that pre-pandemic life, that city buzz and all of the opportunity that lies there.

when I return to that life, to that city, I will be returning stronger, bolder, and more in tune to who I am at my core.

rediscovering

old friendships have turned into present ones and I’ve been able to strengthen my bonds with even my closest people. I’ve gotten to explore my town, my home, and my state more than ever. never before have I been more grateful to exist in Maine with natural beauty all around me and a family so packed full of love.

I found the time and heart to write again. poetry has become part of my new everyday. as a feeler, it feels relieving to be able to write out my emotions as I process them. finally putting pain and joy into words has left my heart feeling attended to, and less heavy. with that in mind, more projects have been born and I’m excited to see what the future brings.

redefining

home means something completely different to me now. not only is it my place of comfort, but it offered me safety when there was no where else to go. days spent in my room, surrounded by the objects and artwork that has shaped me through the years.

“my people” also became extremely important to me during this time. not only was it about choosing who supports you and loves you, but it was about who you want to keep safe. by seeing them or not, this time made you choose who your true people were.

I’ve come to see the world very differently now. I see value in small niches that I may not have before. I care about more and get bothered less. I am learning to be comfortable in who I am and what I do.

all in all, I am grateful for this time. I’ve grown in spirit and in mindset in ways that though intangible and immeasurable, will change the course of my life moving forward into this new normal.

xoxo